I'm an only child and ever since I can remember I've always known how to keep myself company. Not having any brothers or sisters when I was younger made my parents buy me a lot of computer video games in fact I went through, a super nintendo, pico, playstation and a nentendo 64. By the time I was a little bit older and my dad asked me if I wanted an x-box, I remember thinking it's useless having a computer to play with will never replace having a brother or sister. My dad, when buying these gadgets he would always say, "here you go, here's another brother or sister," then he would laugh. At first I would enjoy playing the games that I was able to buy. But, then I remembered how after a few months I always would get bored.
I guess, the point I'm trying to say is that being in Dallas, back to my original home has made me feel my not having brothers and sisters again. I wish sometimes that I had someone like a brother or sister to be with me even if we fought all the time. I think it would just be nice to have someone to talk to when you don't understand your parents or just to go to for advice. My classmates in CIS, all of them are like brothers and sisters to me and that's why I think I miss them more than ever before.
I'm almost 19 years old, and I'm spending my birthday at six flags there is some kind of event that my friends want to go to. It's my dad's company party and since all my friend's dads are part of the same airline company as my dad we all have to go on my birthday. I don't want to go to six flags at all, I know you probably think why not? Well, first of all I don't like being under the sun because I'm going to turn dark. I look horrible when I'm dark and on top of everything this is the first year in a long time that I'm not spending it with my classmates from high school. I know, I have to let go of the past. Maybe that's one of the worst habits that I have in the whole entire world. Well, that and also the fact that I'm ultra sensitive.
I miss brigette my best friend from the whole class because she's the most caring and understanding, she always tries to make me feel better. I miss being with Ayla especially in manila because we really got close and she always gives me good advice and I always have the best times laughing with her. I miss kirstie and how sometimes she always gets slightly embarassed when she's with me because I'm being too loud and I also miss talking with kirstie and laugh as well. I think with everyone we all have different jokes with me, especially. I miss mara and how particular she was about different things that I did in which she always noticed when I had wrong grammer while talking or notice nice things about me she would point out and she's really easy to talk to. I miss moe and her piano we always would play songs together and I would sing, and then me and moe and all our deep conversations so unforgettable. I miss Isa, she always made the class fun and interesting, she's also the most fun when it comes to partying at vudu. Then there is my favorite seatmate in whole wide world that's michiboo, my favorite artist who is gonna be the next best thing in the fashion world, she is the one I talk with about everything especially when it comes to boys, I learned a lot from michelle.
The guys well I miss eric because of our fights that we had. In fairness those were a lot of fun and eric always making fun of me. I miss justin and his jokes on me they were definetly the most creative of them all and justin always gives me such great advice and is easy to talk to. Ben and talking about his love life and I acutally miss that game he made up, who remember's it? You know, "The Idiot Game."haha Ben's also like a brother to me, you know the annoying kind that always makes fun of me, just kidding, well he's also really caring. I miss Allen because he always can make me laugh and is really just funny. Like I was watching shallow hall, and when I saw jack black, I immediately screamed out I miss allen! I miss tim because he's always there for me when I need advice and he never lies to me no matter how much I don't want to hear something he always just tells it to me how it is and I kinda miss how he teases me. Well, everyone teases me in my class period even the girls. Well, I miss jun2x and how serious he seems all the time but, I know deep down inside he really is a nice good hearted guy. Rod, oh my goodness is like the craziest and most interesting person I've met in my life, his life is like something I could only watch in a movie, I think. Dietmar and our busride conversations and how he always calls me megsy. Lastly, but not the least I miss pat and how he's like conan o'brian and our really good conversations he gave me advice that I'll never forget and he's a great rocker.
But, these are all things that my friends back home in Cebu understand, they also accept me for exactly how I am. No matter how loud, annoying, talkative, whiny, panicy and moody I may be the seem to just allow me to be who I am. I was reading past testimonials and most of them said that I needed to tone down a lot and then their testimonial would usually end with something saying how I shouldn't changed because then that wouldn't be me.
Then, their are my MANILA friends and they brought out a different side of me they helped me to find the more matured meghan who wasn't the baby anymore. I learned to just be me in a different way in which with them I was able to speak my mind and articulate myself better with them. I miss them very much as well. Like with pam, she's like my guidance counselor and she has the cutest expressions when I tell her stories. She really listens to me when I talk and that's important to me. Edsel, is my eating friend which is difficult to have when your trying to lose weight but, I always had the best times with ed and talking about the drama in our lives. Him and Pam are like the best singers I know in person, seriously. Then there is bunny, I miss how she was the first person who helped me through my tough times in ballet and really understood as a true artists herself. Then there is Hope, I swear I could never get bored to listening to all her interesting stories about events in her life and she characterizes and analyzes people it's the most entertaining thing for me to do. Lastly, there is Earl who is how I met all these people in the first place in which I miss hangin out on sunday afternoons after ballet and having adventures all the way to alabang on a bus. I miss our conversations and how he would try to ask my opinion about something and then really take it to heart and understand my point of view I have very few friends who actually care and truly listen to my opinions. Oh yeah, and I know I only knew jammala briefly, but I love her she's the best so much fun to hang out with and so down to earth and smart too.hehe And then there is also Lavina, whome she's like one of my closest friends of all times. I miss talking with her and going around eng walk, meeting new guys and just having so much fun.
Well, I think I got out all my homesickness and I feel so much better. I wonder if anyway is actually gonna read this from top to bottom, honestly, if you did read this all the way through I'm surprised you have the patience. And if you are just reading the last paragraph you should really check to see if I wrote about you above. Well, blah
And like a fairy tale, I'll close by saying
And I lived happily ever after.